Meditation...

Ok, here as promised (as if anyones goin to read it anyway)
is a quick tutorial for a basic meditation.
I wont elaborate on any of the steps. If you simply follow them every day for 30-60 minutes, over the weeks, you will begin to see that you can clear your mind and progress onto deeper levels of relaxation.

1. Find a nice quiet place where you know you will not be disturbed and turn off the phones.

2. Lay on your back with no pillows, so that your spine is straight, arms down by your side.

3. Start by breathing deeply, imagine your breath like a sine wave (below).



as the wave goes up, you breath in, then hold a little as you go over the peak, then breath out as you go down the slope.

4. Continue your rythmic breathing and let your whole body relax, keep focusing on your breathing, let your shoulders drop through the floor and relax your facial muscles.

Do this until everything feels natural.
At this point your mind will possibly begin racing with thoughts from that day.
Dont get frustrated and try to force the thoughts out of your mind, simply acknowledge them and welcome them, then simply say goodbye to them as if they were visitors passing through your mind.
At first this will seem tricky but just keep doing this technique and eventually you will develope the power to clear your mind.

5. Ok, after around 10-15 minutes you should be feeling relaxed and focused on your breathing.
Now begin with the tips of your toes, feel them, then concentrate on relaxing them, then move onto your foot, then your ankle, then your shins, knees, thighs, hips and genetalia etc etc.
Focus on relaxing every part of your body from the very bottom to the very top.
All the while, keeping your breathing in the sine wave pattern, nice and deep.

Thats about it, once your whole body is relaxed and your thoughts are at bay you can just lay and enjoy the nothingness.
Simply just "being".

I know that was pretty vague but it`s a good starting point.
From here you can develop deeper.

I`m at the point where I can relax and enjoy a light meditation at almost any time.

When you have finished just open your eyes gently and just lay and appreciate the clarity :)

No Kip....

32 Hours with no sleep,
I feel completely f*cked but dont want to lose any of my spare time.
So, I`ll just stay awake all day as my face and my thoughts distort and contort.
Fantastic.
I heard a theory once where it was thought that sleep deprivation enhanced creativity.
Well I`m sleep deprived and the only creativity I`m expiriencing is conjuring up inventive ways to lay on the settee.
Seriously though, I suppose sleep deprivation is just another state of mind, like zoning out.
Which, in a way, could lead to more creative thoughts, but then so could meditation, sex, drugs etc etc.
You get the picture.
Lets try a proccess of elimination.

Sex could possibly inspire one to create but sex by it`s very nature leaves little else after the deed other than relief, closeness to your partner and a physical satisfaction only found after expelling copious amounts of liquid testosterone.
Not much energy left to create then.

Certain drugs apparently help with the creative proccess but f*ck with your head so that cant be good for a long sustainable, healthy, creative disposition.
see:- Pete docherty, Amy (raid the)winehouse or any other spoilt britpop shitbag
Nothing else to say on drugs except for some wise words from great grandmaster Zamo from mount grange hill.....
JUST SAY NO!!

Now meditation. This is the one.
I have been practicing meditation for many years now and although I still cant find nirvana (not even on the aa route planner) I am proficient enough to still my thoughts and silence my inner critic.
It is in fact, very pleasent and natural but for me personally, so far it yields no significant results on the create-o-meter. The potential is there though but maybe its something you have to tap into.
I`ll post more on meditation in future posts.

Right now I`ve just realised that I have possibly typed in a load of bollox.
I`m going to post it anyway.

I only have 4 hours to go and I`ll apparently expirience LSD type effects.
We shall see.

Anyway, the next post is goin to be a small tutorial on meditation.
Specifically, a couple of easy methods you can use to calm your thoughts and chill out basically.

Umm,

Bye then..

Opposites attract...

Maybe we have more in common than we think.....

Existential duality

How can two types of people exist in one person?
One artistic, creative, deep, pensive and free,
the other dark, depressing, bland, torturous but serving a purpose.
How does one co-exist with the other?
Surely one must fuel the other in some profound, meaningful way?
More like one kills the other, not completely but almost.
Incapacitating is a more suitable description.
Like having no signs of life except for maybe a small, weak spark on a rainy day.
The facilitator repeatedly tries to extinguish the heart, the mind, and the soul.
The passion.
For comfort to continue, the internal battle must go on and create a singular turmoil within one for the benefit of all.

A Normal Life...

Eleven fifty five, three hours to go,
get myself to work, love it.
gotta do the right thing, gotta go earn some money,
feed the family, feed the dog and the cat, feed our desires, our wants.
Yep, living life,
it`s great, being controlled, dictated to.
Nothin better, feeding my family, feeding our desires.
I wouldnt want to live in a world that revolved around goodness,
pure love and basic needs would I?
I much prefer selling my soul every night for some cold hard cash,
you know, for our wants and desires?
Yep, this is the life for me.
I only get to see my partner a few hours a week, in between seeing my daughter and procrastinating over a few bars of music filled with good intentions.
Yep, this is the life for me.
Who would want to just simply "exist" and get their fulfillment from just their family and their music with good intentions?
Who needs the free time to lay on the grass with their amazing little girl and look up at the sky, carefree.
As long as we have money for nice things well be ok.
When all is said and done, and I come to the end of my time, I can say to myself, I did it all for my daughter.
I pass it all down to her.
This "knowledge", this cursed wisdom.
I know what its all about.
Theirs no other way.
No room for anything else.
You only get one life.
May aswell spend it being a slave.